A Broken Believer

It's been a while since I last posted a text post on this blog. I want to write in an actual physical journal but it's harder to document stuff in that and be able to look back. This post is inspired by my previous post, in which I found myself with no direction and not knowing what I want to do or what direction life may take me. God opened doors for me. I finished some schooling for a certificate. That will be useful for me in finding a job in that field. The original job I applied for is still going on, I'm in the last stages and waiting to hear back. I'm flying to a different state to take an entrance exam. There's a lot going on, and I'm thankful to God for opening these doors, but I'm also concerned because my growth at church is just beginning. I don't know if I am ready to leave church just yet for a different area. But only God knows what is good for my spiritual growth. In this time I should focus on doing everything I can to glorify ...

Friday – 05/17/19 Jeremiah 3:1-18 Reflections: 1. How has God demonstrated His loving grace toward you even when you were deep in sin? How can you make repentance a regular practice in your spiritual life? God has provided me with all the basic necessities I need and often more. He has also provided spiritual leaders and friends who have been running alongside me trying to encourage me in my faith and build up my relationship with God. Even as I am sinking deeper into sin when I am alone, God has made it possible for me to return and to grow and thrive in church. It's something I don't actively think about or realize. I can make repentance a regular practice in my spiritual life by regularly coming before God every night, and whatever sins I have committed that day I bring before Him and ask for forgiveness, as well as find ways to prevent the sin from happening again or to fight the temptation the next time. 2. When have you responded to a call to repentance? How...

Tuesday – 05/14/19 Jeremiah 2:9-19 Reflections: 1. How do you understand God’s laws? Which of His laws are most challenging to obey? I understand God's laws by understanding the root cause or benefit of following His laws. Knowing why there is a law in place, or how it contributes to my relationship with God, is effective in helping me follow the law practically. His laws to deny myself and follow Him is the most difficult for me to follow, because I am so caught up in myself. I do not care for others as much as I should, and I do not fear God's holiness as much as I should either. 2. What things in this world entice you away from God? How is Jesus Christ much more satisfying than these things? Material possessions, outward looks, career, and lust are just some of the things that entice me away from God. It's not that I prefer them to God, or my relationship with God, but it seems I have just forgotten how good God is, and how valuable a relationship with Him ...