A Broken Believer

Worship songs hold a special place in my heart because often times they give me a voice when words cannot express my heart's desires. They also serve as good reminders of God's truths and promises. What stuns me the most, however, is the body of Christ unified in worship. Everyone takes comfort in the words and they offer their voices up to God as an expression of their gratitude and their awe of Him. It's powerful. And it moves me every time. It makes me evaluate my relationship with God. He never lets go. He pursues me. Even when I don't pursue Him. He is determined to bring me back to Him, and that is how great His love is. Why do I let sin tell me otherwise? Yes, my sin is offensive to His Holiness, but He sent His Son to die so I can have a relationship with Him. To take advantage of something like that is horrible. I should be living in a holy manner, submitting myself to God and resisting the devil. Again, I struggle with the basics of the Gospel and I find...

I have blogged before--many times on different platforms--but always with an audience in mind. This time, this is just for me. It's for accountability and transparency. It's to archive what I've learned. It's time that I took my faith seriously. This is the beginning of my adult life, where I am working and have free time and also need to have a purpose in life. I've felt the fleeting nature of temporary pleasures. I don't know why I pursue them when they won't contribute in any part to eternity. I have also been feeling God pulling me back to Him in many situations where by all means and reasoning I should have been far gone from my faith. His grace is astounding in that even after a long time away from my faith I still have a solid and supportive church body to take refuge in. They point me to God and His Word, which is extremely important. I find myself struggling with many basic elements of the Gospel, as well as the habits of any good believer. ...